Saturday was Michaela’s 14th birthday. Her grandma is not allowing me any contact with her. She claims that Michaela gets upset, even suicidial after she has any contact with me. I could have emailed Michaela or called her, but I would have just been treated badly by her grandma and then still not allowed to talk to her, and my emotions can not handle that.

I wish I could tell Michaela how much I love her and miss her and wish that she had a great birthday. I was going to send her a card that I bought her, but her grandma said she would not give it to her. I know you more than likely won’t ever read this Michaela, but I love and miss you and I hope you had a wonderful birthday. You are a wonderful person and I truly hope we can have a good relationship in the future. You are a beautiful person inside and out. I have loved you from the minute I found out I was pregnant with you. I really hope you are doing well. Your mom loves and misses you so much. I hope you had a great birthday. 143.